One Confidence

Three Sundays before I got to type this post, I was wondering why God gave us emotions…I kept hearing myself say I wanted to go home, it was like a default yearning in my spirit. Then I asked where home was? Unbelievable, I could not define home at that point in time… the place closest to home was far, at this point I had my eyes filled with tears am thankful to God stayed within my eye lids. I had so many questions; I wanted answers to immediately, *smile* like I always do.  like a child I wanted to get things that I did not know how to get at that instant…then I heard in my spirit that the key to getting answers is asking and not crying…like a child asking a father I asked, then kept my tears. Yet again God proved himself.

Okay does that sound like a testimony? You’d bet rite…. Truth is I have come to learn that the best form of knowledge we can ever have of God is an experiential one. Not a knowledge based on what others sayor do, or the cramming of scriptures, but one as a result of walking with God. *Enoch walked with God and was not….*

I donot know if its tautology or metamorphism, but you know how they ask: “do you want what you get when you get what you want?” A day ago I cried over a hurt I thought I was over, and then I realized again that healing is not a day’s job and God bless whoever said time heals, but it doesnot. Truth is a relationship heals….dont vex..I don’t mean a relationship with the imperfection of the human nature, but a relationship with the perfection, love and faithfulness of the person of Jesus, with the ever present fellowship of the Holy Spirit, revealing the Love and the Will of the Father to us daily, Amen.

I thank God because am at a place in life and in my walk with God where scriptures are not just logos or mere words for me, but rather Rhemaand Alive. I can see everything clearly through the scriptures, Amen. So Ido not just know that “the earth is the Lord’s and its fullness thereof”, but I understand that God is the one who places all things in order, orders our steps and makes things work in our favour and for our good.  I met this ladyand somehow we got talking (with the introvert I have become lately, listening is becoming a hobbyJ). I paid close attention to listen, affirming while she was talking; she said this: “I know God did not bring me out of cancer to make me homeless, it was my season and I trusted and will trust God through it all” I really wanted to scream, but then I kept my cool. I couldn’t help but scream yaaaaay on my inside!!!!!. Seriously that statement shook me…I took a good look at her and smiled, still quietly responding to all she was saying, and taking the piece I felt God was saying to me through her.

 My point is there is nothing; sorry there is nada* like having an experiential and working knowledge of God. I’d say it again: the relationship and working knowledge does not just happen. It is cultivated in the place of the word, fellowship and prayer, out of experience…refer to Romans 5:1-5…no more words…I hope you get it.

I could relate well with what the woman said because walking and growing in God takes you to a point where it’s either God or God, where like Esther you can say if I perish I perish, or like the Hebrew boys, not bow to the golden image and get thrown in the fire (one of the Scriptures I love so much says; to live is Christ, to die is gain *smile* ), a point where I can say my faith has found a restingplace, not in device or creed,  but in the ever living God.  I was reading Romans 5 yesterday again, it’s says: “we glory in tribulations also: knowing that tribulation worketh patience; patience, experience; and experience, hope: and hope make not ashamed; because the love of God is shed abroad in our hearts by the Holy Ghost which is given unto us”, so between you and I, I totally understood what the woman meant. God help me.

Writing this post made me smile so much and want to scream so loud; really it’s a beautiful and love filled experience to stand in the light and look back at the darkness in the tunnel, with a knowing that it was God that brought you through, and will see you through it all, Amen..

Ok at this point, I’mma wrap this post up…

But yes thanks for stopping by to read…..hopefully you were not forced or coerced to read J I hope you got a thing or two.

Shalom!