The ODD Truth

I have been thinking about doing this post now for 2 weeks running. Well its 16th of September, 2011 and my left fingers feel numb and painful hitting the keyboard. I spent the previous day practicing chords on my newly acquired Acoustic Guitar. It’s been fun though irrespective of the pain on my fingers. In recent times, something keeps drawing me home, partly because home is a safe haven, the comfort and the ambiance I’ve created in my room over time, but not just that; there’s this Mahogany colored box that sits right at the head of my bed…..hummmm….My Guitar.. Hey I’ve also been learning to speak Spanish. You know how Spanish and the Guitar go together….lol…….like Romantic…. Talking about being romantic…I’m not sure if I am or not..That’s gist for another day jor**winks**…..ooops..I promised myself I wasn’t going to talk about this………..well I just did…Am sorry

Ok let’s hit this………Am not a psychologist nor a psychic, I just observe, meditate and smile or laugh at whatever, as the case may be. Have you ever sat down to reminisce on your expressions, carriage and well your appearance? Well we are all different, not that some of us are jobless; we just replace boredom with curiosity and brain-storming. I’ll Paint this scenario; I was once @ a bus-stop, a known friend with a car passed, I was seriously expecting the babe to stop to give me a ride, all I got was a wide smile and a wave; if I had gotten a call later or message saying “sorry babe was in a hurry or some flimsy excuse, it would pacify the hurt I felt”. Ok I got neither. I felt really bad, and a little embarrassed. I can imagine my face must have been white…..

I want you to remember instances when you felt disappointed, jilted, cheated, when u said hello to a known friend and didn't get a reply, when u tried making eye contacts and u almost did and eyeballs flicked, how you felt when you had to run to catch a bus and just as you are about sitting, someone steps right in front of you, and takes the last available sit. The anger, the rage, the feeling of despair, the embarrassment; If you use a Blackberry, you send a Broadcast* and not one person replies, or you don’t get a single “like” from your facebook post; not even your boyfriend/girlfriend***oops***…..lol.

It’s crazy how much we expect from people, the society and the Environment. With the series of all this on a daily basis, in a fast moving world as this, what you get is frightening: - the looks in d eye of most humans that depicts fear, despair, mediocrity, frustration, disappointment, a self esteem tampered with, plus Illiteracy, as the case may be; this results in a dysfunctional Individual and a dysfunctional citizen of any country. What you get is clearly seen around you, your office, on the street, even in the church, the rich and the poor inclusive. At the end of this chain, we know Humans are not just a product of their thoughts; but these thoughts are shaped by their Environment, what they see, hear and perceive.

The Point Is: Nothing just happens, Every event plants seeds in our lives, every affair, every relationship, every gist, every moment, every caption, every action, every reaction; is either planting a seed to enhance your person or reduce your person.

The Person you are today is summation of all the events you’ve been through, be it relevant or irrelevant; as a matter of fact nothing is irrelevant, because if you are involved, a seed has been sown, no matter how little. Some seeds are worse than the events; the events last for minutes, hours, split seconds, milli seconds, but the seed germinates and shapes your person either positively or negatively.

Pro 4:23*** Keep thy heart with all diligence; for out of it are the issues of life. It means you should keep your heart with constant check and strength. The chain goes on and on…you’ll have to be a fighter, to be different and break from the chain, from the bitterness and the frustration everyone runs around with. You will have to sieve everything, and command exactly what you want. You’ve got to be sensitive to everything and everyone around you; am not saying you should be paranoid, but don’t allow just anything and anybody throw rubbish into your life. Our environment is filled with rubbish stories and rubbish people; if you allow the rubbish then you’ll become bigger rubbish…am sorry…but u get the point ba! This world functions with the sowing and reaping theory. Allow into your life the kind of things you’ll like to see, allow the kind of people that will sow the kind of seed that will yield the kind of results you want. Be conscious of every statement, be firm in your mind, actions and decisions. Casting down every imagination and everything that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, bringing into captivity every thought to the knowledge and obedience of the authority of Jesus, No weapon formed against you shall prosper and any tongue that rises against you will be/should be condemned, every tree that God does not approve of being planted in your life; you either remove it or it will germinate and produce rubbish.

I sat down some days back and asked myself how I became like this, not like there’s anything wrong with me; but most of the traits I have are not totally from either of my parents. I can’t remember fully well, but certain events in my life have left me, not wanting to be expectant about people, wanting to do things on my own; I have it somewhere in my head that asking people to help is like you are actually bothering them.
About being expectant; its necessary we remind ourselves that what we Perceive is what we’ll Receive; Soooo….
I’m doing a soul searching to identify past events, while bracing up to be strong and constant in check of the seeds sowed in and around me; as well as being expectant tooooo………**Winks**………………….

I am firm, strong, sure of who I am, Whose I am and where I am going ****Winks*****#GRACE