The Man.............................................
It's been a while since I updated this blog… funny though, but a whole lot has happened. Okay like it’s any of your business, lol...I’ll just go straight to the point.
I sincerely think age comes to play in the decisions we make, especially if you are like me between childhood and adult hood…sincerely I usually do not want to consider myself an adult nor a baby...That is by d way.
Sometimes in February I made a decision, I decided to see what I had been blind to and take it serious; well it ended and it wasn’t easy. Yeas but I had to. Then I was lonely and tried to fill d place….another terrible mistake, because after I ended the mistake, which was barely 3 weeks, I came to the conclusion that “unlike does not attract when it comes to the things of the kingdom”.
I see things differently now, probably because am now a year older, or just because I went through it, and I came out…Probably not as fine as gold, but good enough to be a vessel of honour placed on the Masters Table….lol. Okay well that’s the first part.
Okay I am out good, but the truth is I sincerely feel lonely…before I forget, I got to join ushering department in church and I have to constantly ask myself the motive behind joining. My cousin says its those who are looking for spouses that join…lol. I just noticed there’s this level of attention, its pretty much, plus people get to know you and am not comfortable…better say, my spirit isn’t comfortable with the attention***the brothers too, if you know what I mean.…so I intend taking a break or pulling out. Back to track, I do feel lonely… really lonely….funny I can’t make a decision based on loneliness, I mean even if there is the need, not just anybody will do# Yeah I Said It. It’ll crumble; it’s not a good foundation to start a relationship. There’s something about foundations, the kind of bricks we lay on them, and the patterns we form, they tell on the health of our Relationships and Marriages.
Along the line, a friend gave me a birthday present-it was a book; Eddie Long- what Men want, what Women need. I learnt all I need is a “Kingdom Man”….It’s the totality of all I want; A man who has the spirit of God, who understands purpose and who loves me like Christ loves the church.
Sometimes I try to imagine what my wedding will be like, and I try to place a face of my husband…..I usually can’t put a face…the faces I’ve known are either not ready, not my type or just not saying anything( some brothers just leave u in d dark….Flee..lol**even if u like d brother), ok so I just put a manly figure and all I can see is the head the hands and the legs, I cover the face and the body with a Big Plank that says “KINGDOM MAN”… so I see myself hand in hand with the Kingdom man as ‘Husband and Wife’…Funny, but TRUE… lol. Its more comforting and I don’t have to bug my head about it.
So this is where I am, Single, Loving God, Living Purpose, Standing for Righteousness…no bullshits and I came up with this phrase that I will close with…..’EVERYTHING OUTSIDE THE GOD FACTOR IS BULLSHIT’ #Yeah I Said It…
I sincerely think age comes to play in the decisions we make, especially if you are like me between childhood and adult hood…sincerely I usually do not want to consider myself an adult nor a baby...That is by d way.
Sometimes in February I made a decision, I decided to see what I had been blind to and take it serious; well it ended and it wasn’t easy. Yeas but I had to. Then I was lonely and tried to fill d place….another terrible mistake, because after I ended the mistake, which was barely 3 weeks, I came to the conclusion that “unlike does not attract when it comes to the things of the kingdom”.
I see things differently now, probably because am now a year older, or just because I went through it, and I came out…Probably not as fine as gold, but good enough to be a vessel of honour placed on the Masters Table….lol. Okay well that’s the first part.
Okay I am out good, but the truth is I sincerely feel lonely…before I forget, I got to join ushering department in church and I have to constantly ask myself the motive behind joining. My cousin says its those who are looking for spouses that join…lol. I just noticed there’s this level of attention, its pretty much, plus people get to know you and am not comfortable…better say, my spirit isn’t comfortable with the attention***the brothers too, if you know what I mean.…so I intend taking a break or pulling out. Back to track, I do feel lonely… really lonely….funny I can’t make a decision based on loneliness, I mean even if there is the need, not just anybody will do# Yeah I Said It. It’ll crumble; it’s not a good foundation to start a relationship. There’s something about foundations, the kind of bricks we lay on them, and the patterns we form, they tell on the health of our Relationships and Marriages.
Along the line, a friend gave me a birthday present-it was a book; Eddie Long- what Men want, what Women need. I learnt all I need is a “Kingdom Man”….It’s the totality of all I want; A man who has the spirit of God, who understands purpose and who loves me like Christ loves the church.
Sometimes I try to imagine what my wedding will be like, and I try to place a face of my husband…..I usually can’t put a face…the faces I’ve known are either not ready, not my type or just not saying anything( some brothers just leave u in d dark….Flee..lol**even if u like d brother), ok so I just put a manly figure and all I can see is the head the hands and the legs, I cover the face and the body with a Big Plank that says “KINGDOM MAN”… so I see myself hand in hand with the Kingdom man as ‘Husband and Wife’…Funny, but TRUE… lol. Its more comforting and I don’t have to bug my head about it.
So this is where I am, Single, Loving God, Living Purpose, Standing for Righteousness…no bullshits and I came up with this phrase that I will close with…..’EVERYTHING OUTSIDE THE GOD FACTOR IS BULLSHIT’ #Yeah I Said It…
Now i hear a daughter of God speaking...to the top dear...yes to the top where God lives...
ReplyDeleteNice one here Pelumi! I think i ll have to get that book of Eddie. "Everything outside God factor is Bullshit" GBAM!!!!!!!!!
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